Day 0

I've loved wearing and wetting diapers ever since I can remember but - as is the case with most DLs - I have had to hide the habit throughout my life. It's only been in recent years that I've been able to wear openly in my own space and to be able to actually change into a new diaper after wetting the first.

I've fantasized about being kept in diapers 24/7 for some time but now I'm in a situation where I can actually try to stay in diapers 24/7 and see how long I can last before I break down and re-visit the toilet. So I decided to put my fantasies to the test and keep this journal in order to record details on things like changes, costs, etc. and to record my feelings as I go through this process.

Here are the tools of the trade so far:

Abena Abri-Form S2s.
I have a 31" waist which leaves me right on the edge between small and medium sizes. The leg tapes on these diapers can be a bit tight, but they fit me better than the Abena medium size and, as an added bonus, are much less expensive per diaper. I'm looking into switching over to Tranquility ATNs for odor control and I have a pack of 10 on the way to test them out.

Baby Wipes and Powder
Going 24/7 means going through a lot of wipes, especially after messing (more on that in a moment). So I have a big tub of Abena wipes on the way too to replace the grocery store, Pampers ones I have been using to tide me over thus far. I'm using Johnson & Johnson cornstarch baby powder because I read something about talc falling out of favor recently.

While I reserve the right to change the format as the blog progresses, each post will follow this format.

- An initial overview of statistics for the day:
# of diapers used
each diaper's state at time of changing: (wet, messy, wet/messy, dry)
total cost of diapers for the day

- Journal format account of the day in diapers.

Since I haven't been in diapers for the full 24 hours yet, I wanted to share some initial thoughts on getting started. At 1:30 AM on June 1st, I'll create a full post that will establish the format.

Journal:

I started at 1:30 AM on March 31st. I put on one of my trusty S2s and bid farewell to the toilet for the foreseeable future. When I wear diapers, I wet frequently because I don't hold back my pee for one wetting. By the time I went to bed a few hours later, my diaper wasn't soaked to capacity but I didn't want to fall asleep in it so I went in for a change.

In the past when I've worn diapers overnight, my morning erection has presented a problem: instead of being able to lie in bed and pee in the morning, I would have to get up and readjust my little friend so he was pointing in the appropriate direction. After reading through the famous 12-month guide, however, I was now prepared to solve this little dilemma. For my overnight diaper, I made the leg tapes tight but also tightened the waist tapes so that the top of the diaper didn't leave very much room at all.

It worked! I woke up this morning and my penis was pointing straight down. I was able to lie down on my stomach while checking e-mail on my phone and pee. It was pretty blissful.

Within a few hours after waking up, I had to poop. Let's talk about poop. Like many DLs, my primary focus as a teenager was wetting. I tried pooping but the cleanup was untenable and the smell was annoying. More recently, I've begun pooping in diapers again, attempting little sporadic day-long stretches in diapers. Let's just say that it's grown on me as the cleanup has become more routine. Spending several days in diapers might change that but we'll see, won't we?

For me, the psychological effect of knowing that I have to be in diapers constantly makes the nuisance of cleanup worthwhile. If I knew I could go take my diapers off to poop and put them right back on, the feeling of lack of control would not be as consistent nor as pressing. So, while it's not my favorite part of the diapered experience, it's necessary for me to commit to the 24/7 experience.

On a related note, a few days ago I tried using a glycerin suppository to simulate what it might feel like to lose bowel control. It was an interesting experience and I'm eager to try it again. When I used it the first time, I definitely felt irritated but still felt like I was the one making the conscious decision to let it go. When I did poop, I could still see some of the suppository which had me worried that it didn't dissolve all the way. The next time I try it, I'm going to pop it in as I'm going to sleep and see if I wake up messing myself which would be an awesome feeling. I might try that as soon as tonight.

But back to the journal account. Because I had made my diaper so tight the night before, pooping in my overnight diaper this morning made for a particularly un-fun cleanup. In the future, I should probably re-fasten the tapes after I get out of bed so the poop has some more room. I took a shower afterwards and changed into a fresh S2 which I have on right now. My Tranquility ATNs arrive on Saturday, at which point I might put them in the mix. For now, though it's S2s. Also, my cleanup this morning used the last of my Pampers wipes so I'm going to have to pick some up while I'm out today.

If you feel like commenting, you can provide tips, share reactions, or leave notes of encouragement. I'm not committing to going 24/7 full-time but I do want to see how long I can last, so having supporters will help me with that. Thanks for reading!